Happy new year everyone!! I think this time of year and holiday season may be my favorite time of year. There is just so much happening. The past few years there has been this escalation of the “war on Christmas” stuff and that is always amusing. I have 3 kids so we love Christmas at our house and we made some really great memories this year. I would like to use this post to look back on the year the good times and bad then look forward to all the things that are coming this next year.
2013 for me was one of the best years of my life. (I feel like they have only been getting better for the last couple of years.) We moved twice! Both times to better places than we were living previously. We moved from the Harden St apartment we brought Vi home to, to a house in the “country”. We got into a great school and all the kids have improved in them. Lex and Vi are making leaps and bounds in the vocabulary area and Ari is reading every day to us. (That is something I was worried about because of my childhood.) The house in the country wasn't without it’s issues though. We had rats and we killed so many I lost count and our landlord lost our rent on several occasions causing the police to show up at our house because he had started eviction processes. So when our family blessed us with a gift we used it to move again. We were able to stay in the same school district and move into a bigger house with a huge flat backyard and so far we are all very happy here. I can not thank those family members enough you have no idea how much your gift improved the lives of my family, we love you.
2013 also marks the third full year I have been with my life partner. He is amazing there is no one else in the world like him and I am the luckiest girl in the world for having him in my life. He is my support in all things and I know I am a better person now than I ever have been. We work so well together we have this way of getting the best out of each other that amazes me everyday. He is also a one of a kind father and “step-father” to our kids. I realized this year he has been in all of their lives longer now than he wasn't. We all love and rely on him. I love you Gavin.
2013 did hold some tears for me. Mostly coming to the realization I am dealing with what is called post tubal ligation syndrome. Which is basically a fancy way of saying when I had my tubal after Violet was born the doctor accidentally cut off or severely restricted blood flow to my ovaries causing what is basically the onset of early menopause. I’m 29 dealing with mood swings, hot flashes, night sweats, more panic attacks, and some of the itchiest skin ever. Right now I am able to take over the counter supplements and they are helping make up for the loss of estrogen. I still have a period so all the pain none of the gain so to speak lol.
One last peek back to 2013 to note that this was the year more than any other I took control of my physical fitness. I’ve lost weight and inches and I feel a lot better. I found it was a good way to help control all the menopause symptoms and a lot of my aches and pains are gone. I am very excited to see how things continue to change over this next year.
Looking ahead to 2014. The most immediate thing I am looking at is my birthday on the 4th when I will be turning 30. I am very excited about this, it feels like a new start with a nice round number. I feel clean shiny and new. I am actually going to have a part this year and people are actually coming. I have given it the theme of the Addams Family. I love the Addams Family, they are what I want my family and marriage to be like. I want my kids to be open, clever, smart, and a little weird. I want my marriage to be passionate, lusty, and all encompassing. I want each other to be the only ones we long for and do long for each other a fire in our bellies. The understand, acceptance and love the Addams Family has for all of its members and the world around them is so beautiful.
Side rant on the topic of my birthday. I'm going to be 30 on Saturday and more than a few people are making those "cute" jokes about, "you mean you're turning 28....again. hahaha" No goddamnit, I'm going to be 30! We need to get over this obsession with youth and realize with age comes wisdom and a beauty all it's own. I lived and fought through all of those years they are mine and I wouldn't want to forget or hide any of them for anybody. I'm not sad or uncomfortable with 30 please don't try to put your insecurity off on me. Life is too short, fragile, and beautiful for any of that.
As for the rest of 2014 I’m not making any plans I’ll just have to see what the year hold for me. Like every other year of every person on the planet I’m sure there will be ups and downs and I’ll take all of them as they come. Sure I know there are things will are going to happen the end of the school year and summer vacation, all my kids birthdays (which are always emotional). Other than that let come what may no matter what happens I have people that love me and we will all make it through together.
